Ambiguity and Reality

 

The reality I am after is your reality. If I create ambiguity along with a few naturalistic cues then maybe you create your own subjective reality. That is because you complete the image, you create the narrative and
 you project your own emotions. You will do a better job completing my painting with your own perfect mental image and personal narrative than I can.

 

Ambiguity creates a vacuum that you want to fill. Ambiguity means that there are alternative interpretations, alternate realities and alternate states of certainty. And with repeat viewings, it is likely to change. 

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Perception

 

I realize that I lose control of the painting the minute I quit work on it and it is seen, experienced and interpreted by others. It fascinates me to see how viewers react in ways I never intended or foresaw. Meaning, as it relates to art, is subjective and never fixed. 

 

We are captive to our own experience, perspective and anxieties. They influence our perception of meaning, reality and truth. But our perception is fraught with ambiguity and so I think we adapt and respond by looking inward to past experiences and our common sense for resolution. Half remembered memories, after images and prior non-linear experiences all affect our perception. I want you to have new and different experiences, over time; each time you re-create my portraits with your own mental image, narrative and emotions. Can I entice you to perceive and experience a greater reality of your own making

 

Shared Gaze

 

I try to exploit the effects of a shared gaze. We are drawn to eyes. I want you to feel like my subjects are staring into your soul. There is a difference between a person in the painting simply looking at you versus engaging with you. The gaze can work both ways in that you might crawl behind the eyes of the person in the painting staring out at you just to see what he or she is looking at. 

 

If I engage you with eyes, then I can also start to do other things peripherally with line and color.  I can color outside of the lines and your mind will resolve it. Vague and scribbled outlines and graphic vectors become part of a recognizable whole.

  

Lines on Faces

 

I really like to draw lines. I create lines from life.  Can I capture essence with a line such that the line no longer looks like a person but has that person’s qualities?  Of course, the lines make their way into my portraits.  These lines have elements of caricature and abstraction. Practically speaking they allow me to simply break up a facial plane and have a little fun.  On a large face there is a great deal of space between facial features.  I like to fill them in with mini abstracts that may or may not follow the human contours.

 

I think that the lines are part of an assortment of cues that collectively cause you to see a person.  In other words, the paintings are composites of cues that your brain assembles.  This is a very cubist notion. 

 

Big Faces

 

We are attracted to faces – it is our nature.  If I fill the canvas with a big face then there is little room for external leading context.  I think this along with the large size and closely cropped face creates an elevated sense of intimacy. 

 

Visual Effects

 

I am interested in the effect of central and peripheral vision - how our brains process line, color and shading and how I can create ambiguity when the lines and shading on a face are inconsistent.

 

I also explore the notion of global versus local vision. For instance, from a distance the face might appear realistic and, in some cases, almost photo-real but upon close inspection is a succession of abstractions that cause the viewer to reprocess the image. It is two paintings in one.

 

I also use iridescent paints that change with lighting and point of view causing shifting patterns of light. Witnessing these small changes might make these images appear more real.

 

Process - Improvisation 

 

I use a limited pallet of acrylic paint along with metallic and iridescent colors that produce changing patterns with changes in lighting and view angle. I prefer Golden brand acrylics. I also use charcoal, graphite and oil pastels. 

 

My primary tools are Bounty paper towels, a variety of brushes, sandpaper and a Scotch-Brite kitchen scrubby.

 

I typically mix a metallic color (usually silver or gold) with a very watered-down black fluid acrylic and then I pour it on the canvas. Sometimes I let it run and sometimes I let it form a puddle. I lay paper towels over the paint and soak it up. I do this at varying paint-drying stages to get different effects. I apply clear acrylic and then do it all over again. I might have ten layers of metallic paint layers before I am done. 

 

I drip, brush, pour, scrub and scape paint while applying a variety of lines, dots and other adjustments. I allow accidents to direct/influence me as I create a portrait. I treat the areas between facial features as if they were separate abstract paintings. In other words, I allow the image to emerge from the random application of paint and I also attempt to create interest by treating large facial planes as separate abstracts.

 

I experiment with the amount and type of information required to evoke an image and to find those characteristics that cause the viewer to emotionally respond to the portrait. 

 

My style is unmistakable and yet the qualities from one painting to the next appear different but somehow similar. I have parlayed problems and experiments into major elements of my style. I work in a free manner that results in a lot of unplanned effects that I observe, evaluate, and may attempt to replicate or morph into something else. These experiments, accidents and exploitations drive what I do. It's the practice of making and creating in the moment as a response to something - a stimulus - an idea - a challenge - maybe a drip of paint. That drip running down my canvas may be a random occurrence but what I do with it is not.  What matters most is recognizing which accident or experiment might be useful and then how to exploit it and then I just go with it.

 

Digital Hybrid Paintings

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My digital hybrids are repurposed high-resolution images of my own large-scale unfinished paintings, in-process work, and original digital drawings which I re-process with various digital tools. I add a range of new elements and enhancements which may include various marks, masks, graphic overlays, animation and sound to the base image which I then reproduce as an individual image or video. They are prepared for HD display on TV monitors, as on-line presentations or as projections as large as theater screens.

 

Never Finished

 

My paintings tend to be layers of fresh starts.  I believe I have a finished face one day but soon I brush, draw, flow or spill paint all over the surface, leaving traces - a template to guide the next iteration. I suspect that my mental image and expectation of the painting keeps evolving as I work on it.

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Key Influences

 

Some key artist influencers include Willem de Kooning, Pablo Picasso, David Hockney, Oswaldo Guayasamin, Marlene Dumas and Egon Schiele. I am keenly interested in the visual brain, Byzantine art and the ideas of the seminal cubists. I am driven to improve because my art is in service of my mission.

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And in the End

 

For me the essence of art is the exploration of fundamental issues of our time. I explore addiction, stigma, intolerance, and violence with its victims, witnesses and survivors. My job as an artist is to get you to think and to ask questions. This is the larger conversation; the wider dialog that I want to be part of. In the end we must ask how we are to respond. Simply being affected is not enough. How can I make that happen? Can I be part of the solution?

 

I have more than 300,000 social media followers. Some write to me. One woman wrote and said that after seeing one of my paintings that she knew I understood her and that she wanted to die. The next morning she looked at the very same painting and this time saw hope in the woman’s eyes and….. she then understood that she too could have hope. She told me that I saved her life. This is why I paint.